Below is the fourth letter in the series, โLetters To Dad.โ They are written by Sam Riviera, and are based on the true stories of people he actually knows in real life.
Dad,
You probably thought youโd never hear from me again. Well, itโs me. Iโm alive.
But now Iโm somewhere where you can never find me or hurt me.
Thereโs a public library near here where I can get on the internet. I check Facebook. Sometimes I see your posts. I read that you found out Iโm gay. Did you really say โHeโs better off dead if heโs gayโ? What is that supposed to mean? Is that some kind of threat? To your own flesh and blood? You want me dead? Seriously?
I didnโt have a choice to be born. I didnโt get to choose who my dad is. I also didnโt get to choose that Iโm gay. Regardless of what you think, I didnโt choose any of those things.
I wasnโt kidnapped. I had been planning my escape for a long time. I had to get away from you. Why? You scare me. Actually, you terrify me. I figured sooner or later you were going to find out Iโm gay. I had to get as far away from you as possible before that happened.
Now that I see what you wrote on Facebook, Iโm glad I ran.
I didnโt want you trying to beat demons out of me. Thatโs what you said. โIf I ever find out any kid of mine is gay, Iโll beat those demons out of them if it kills them.โ You said that.
Seriously? You think I have demons in me? Why are you such an angry person? You need help.
Where did you learn this stuff, anyway? From those homophobic guys you work with? You know that some of them are gay, donโt you? Seriously, dad. Some of them are gay. Donโt you know that? You have gay neighbors and gay relatives and gay coworkers. Which of them are you going to beat the demons out of? That could get you some serious jail time.
You said the Bible says gay people are abominations and should be stoned. Nice. Is that supposed to be Christian love? Where did you learn that? That is sick. And frightening.
Anyway, not that you care, but Iโm surviving. For now. Iโve hooked up with some other kids in similar situations. About half my group is gay. Some got thrown out by their parents when they came out. The rest of us took off before our parents found out so we wouldnโt get the crap beat out of us.
We live outdoors most of the time. We steal to survive. We panhandle. Some of us sell drugs. Some of us sell sex. Donโt be surprised. Stealing, begging, addiction, dealing drugs, selling sex, and being homeless is our lifestyle … chosen for us by our parents … by dads like you.
Oh, and add dead to that list. Our lifestyle makes for a short lifespan. Suicide, overdosing, disease, getting stabbed, shot or beaten to death, or dying from exposure on cold nights is our lifestyle.
Iโm not really mad at you. Iโm seriously afraid of you. Thinking about you hurts. You are my dad for Godโs sake. How can you be like that? How could you sentence me to a life like this? Youโre the one who made that choice. You chose. I didnโt. You cut me off. You threatened my life. Youโre responsible for me being on this earth. You brought me here. Now you want me dead?
One of my group read online that kids like us have a lifespan of four or five years at most. Maybe Iโll beat those odds. Maybe not.
Seriously, Shaun




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