Most Christians have wondered at one time or another if they have committed the unforgivable sin.
I remember being terrified as a child that I had committed some unknown sin which would separate me eternally from God, and so several times a day, I would ask God to forgive me of all known and unknown sins, and would once again ask God to save me and give me eternal life. I was scared that I had committed a sin which was unforgivable.
What bad things had I possibly done as a youth? Nothing too serious. I fought with my siblings, stole candy from the supermarket, and disobeyed my parents.
But there were a few particular sins which terrified me most. They were terrible and I hesitate even to write them here, as I have never told anyone about them before. But to show you that I too have struggled with the unforgivable sin, let me share one of my more terrible sins.
My Most Terrible Sin
As a teenager, I remember kneeling at my bed late one night, and praying to Satan that he would come into my heart.
This is a terrible thing to pray for, but let me explain my rationale. I had been told as a child that one became a Christian by asking Jesus into their heart, which I had done. In fact, as I indicated above, I had done this numerous times.
But one day, someone told me that God was stronger than Satan, and once Jesus was in your heart, nothing could remove Him; not even Satan.
So I decided to test it.
I once prayed to Satan that he would enter my heart.
I also prayed that if he was successful, he would make me the antichrist.
I figured that if I was going to go down in flames, I might as well make it count.
I remember waiting for something to feel different, but nothing seemed to change, and so I decided that Jesus must have been successful in keeping Satan out of my heart.
Have I Committed the Unforgivable Sin?
Nevertheless, even though I did not feel Satan enter my heart, for many years afterwards I had an unshakable fear that maybe Satan had been successful, and since he was the great deceiver, I would not know that he ruled my heart until I actually became the antichrist. So I began to pray night and day that God would keep me from becoming the antichrist. One of my greatest fears at that time was that I would grow up to be God’s greatest enemy on earth.
You can imagine that among the theories on what the unpardonable sin is, one of the top contenders is asking Satan to kick Jesus out of your heart and take up residence there himself so that you can become the antichrist. If there is any unforgivable sin, this is it.
If anyone has committed the unforgivable sin, it is me.
If I had gone for counseling from a pastor who warns others about the unforgivable sin, I believe he would have told me I was doomed forever; that there was no forgiveness for me.
In fact, such a pastor would probably also say that since I committed the unpardonable sin, what I write in these posts about the unpardonable sin is not from God, but is the heresy of a reprobate heart darkened by Satan’s lies.
I hope that after you read these posts, you will feel differently.
I hope that you will come to see how much God loves you and forgives you. I have seen this for myself, and frankly, I cannot imagine how it would benefit Satan to teach others that God is loving and forgiving.
I hope that these posts will help you determine for yourself — in the light of Scripture and through the guidance of the Holy Spirit — that you also have not committed the unforgivable sin.
The content of these posts contain some of the things I have learned over the years about the unforgivable sin, and how I gained freedom and deliverance from my sins of the past. Like me, I trust that as you also will come to to an understanding of God’s infinite love, grace, and forgiveness.
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I am a Christian and live God dearly. I often get intrusive blasphemous thoughts and usually when it comes into my head, I try to think or say aloud something positive about God. However, the way I say it is a bit unusual. For example if some thoyght luke “Jesus is nothing” came in my head, I’d say “Jesus is nothing but awesome!” You see, I tend to start negatively, but end positively.
Unfortunately, I was trying to do the same thing the other day. I was thinking of a positive thing to say about the Holy Spirit, but in my weird negative-positive way. So I ended up willfully saying “The Holy Spirit is satanic..” Boom! I then realised I did not mean that, but I wanted to use the word ‘satanic’ in order to say something positive about the holy spirit (which I do believe). I genuinely love the Holy Spirit, but I am scared because I willfully said it, but in an unthoughtful way. I most definitely do NOT believe what I stupidly said in my heart. What do you think? Please give me your honest view.
P.s my message wasn’t clear, but I wanted to clarify, I did not say it in my heart and I certainly do not agree/believe what I stupidly said. Please help.
Sorry, last message. I take comfort in the view that, if somebody is worried about it, it means they have committed it. That, you want God to be with you, therefore the Holy Spirit is in you. But what about those people who were locked out, weeping and gnashing their teeth? They were knocking but God wanted nothing to do with them. Or in heaven, when someone who is there but wasn’t invited to the wedding and came in but were kicked out. Satan plagues me with these fears.
S,
That is an excellent question. I really need to publish a post or two on those “weeping and gnashing of teeth” passages. People are usually surprised to learn that in those texts, Jesus is not talking about hell at all. He is talking about people who are in the Kingdom, but who miss out on certain aspects of the Kingdom, and later come to regret the decisions that caused this.
S,
You have not committed the unpardonable sin. Really.
God is not like some pagan deity whose default attitude toward us is anger and vengeful wrath. No, God looks like Jesus on the cross, who loves us so much, He went to any length necessary to be forgive us and reconcile us to Himself.
It sounds like you love God and want to serve and follow Him. Focus your mind on Jesus and learn to follow Him. All the rest will fall into place.
your mind is like an open door sometimes if you leave a door open a fly will enter whether you want it to or not same with these thoughts god knows your heart and so does the holy spirit god loves you and will always forgive you if you go to him so dont worry just pray daily and leave the rest to jesus
I’ve read (and are now of the opinion) that in the Pharisees’ non-acceptance of the work of the Holy Spirit as they followed Jesus and saw the miracles, He was warning them that if they continued in this way they were rejecting salvation by proxy. That is, if they kept in their mindset of non-acceptance.
If they relented from this position, they opened themselves to the gospel.
That is, the statement that Jesus made was specific to that particular group of Pharisees who were particularly stubborn to the way the Spirit was working through Jesus in that particular narrative. It was not Jesus announcing a ‘law of the Medes and Persians’ edict from heaven onto mankind.
How old were you ? Seem a fairly immature thing to do.
Mark, Yes, that is a view I held for quite a while. It is a very good view.
Matthew, I was probably about 10 or 11.
Young enough to be a kid. Old enough to want to be a adult. My nephew just turned 12, so I know. 😉
Hey, my name is Skye and I need some reassurance that I haven’t committed the unforgivable sin. A little while ago after I had decided I would dedicate myself more completely to God I was thinking about how He uses the Holy Ghost to speak through us and I was trying to fight the slight disbelief I had of it even though I completely knew that it was true, just trying to block out the sinful thoughts. Then all of a sudden the thought, “The Holy Ghost is a demon,” came to my head and afterwards I immediately started to block it out and reassure myself that it was not true before I started to believe it. Does that mean I have committed the unforgivable sin? Please reply soon.
Skye,
I’m not a pastor or anything but I have been a Christian since I was 10 and have worked in ministry and have certificates for study. When I read your post you stated “I need some reassurance that I haven’t committed the Unpardonable Sin.” Then you asked for a reply soon. I instantly thought of myself wanting man’s reassurance and not God’s. The Bible is chock full of scripture that states you’re in God’s hands and “He will never leave you nor forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5.” You don’t need man’s assurance, you have His Word.
There is so much talk today about have we committed blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. But, very few people talk about what they actually said that scares them. Is saying G-d damn, G-d dammit and G-d damn blasphemy of the Holy Spirit?
saying that word is vulgar and a ugly habit. I know I have to work on that one. First thing is learning patience not to let my self get to the point of frustration that it just comes out. Next is renewing my mind. Changing my daily thoughts from a smoldering anger to love and caring that only comes by meditation on the scripture. Try it for 21 days and you’ll be changed for as long as you keep doing it.
Hello, I believe that I have committed this sin..I don’t know know what to do anymore. I need someone else from the outside looking in to examine the situation and help me to determine if I have committed this sin.
Mercedes, if you’re worried about having committed this sin against the Holy Spirit then it is unlikely you’ve committed it at all as you would feel no shame, worry, fear or concern about maybe having done it. Infact if you had I think you would probably be happy about it and continue to do it. You wouldn’t be worried about it at all.
Repent and turn from your sin, trust in Jesus that He can save you, and receive God’s peace that surpasses all understanding.
Christ is our only hope and the enemy wants to keep you feeling condemned. Jesus loves you, He paid the price for your sin. Trust that He is sufficient to deal with your sin and redeem your life from the grave. He loves you! God has a plan for your life.
I guess I’m in need of assurance that I am forgiven by God . I did something that ended up getting me in prison and 2 yrs of probation. I know from watching TV shows that with what I did most people would say I be doing the world a favor if I kill myself. I be came a Christian at 18 I’m 55 right now and I really deep down don’t know if God loves me anymore. I guess if you were to ask me I would have to be honest and say God is finished and ashamed of me.
Hi Brian,
The fact that you’re here able to write that message is proof that God isn’t ‘done with you’. Every beat of your heart is evidence of God upholding you and His incredible mercy.
He kew you would do everything you’ve done and ever will do and still He chose to pay your penalty and die on the cross for you. That is His ultimate proof that He loves you and has not forsaken you.
I know the feeling. Not for pride sake but to show the love of Christ and his ability to rescue us for anything if we raise are hands and reach out . A born again sprite filled . Slowly turned away and became a dug dealer along with all the trappings.. After a seemingly ruined life. All alone and lonely picked up the bible. Determine not to put it down till i got something anything out of it. Something to hang onto. After a few hrs or more of nothing. Still kept reading . Suddenly the words came to life. Sunk in my spirit. I know because I know. I’m set free. I love my self again. I look people in the eye again. Maybe it might work for you Brian ?
I suppose unforgivable sin is sin we don’t confess and ask for forgiveness. Afterwards repent. After we do that. We have no business with that sin what so ever God has it and he pitch it in the sea of his forgetfulness ! So one could say “WHAT” sin.. How can I possibly have a unforgivable sin ?? Its gone. No one knows where it is . May as well live free praise God
My son had a hell vision on the precipice and the H.S. kicked something down into the river of lava and said Go back to hell where you belong to the thing or entity.
He said he received a message saying “H.S. Warning” right before he took a bath. A day later we had Holy Communion in my house. I threw the paper plate away with very few crumbs in the plastic garbage bag and he threw a sponge you use to rinse off body soap into the same bag. Hours or the next day, he heard a voice telling him Unpardonable sin. He believes because he threw this sponge in the same bag that he committed this sin He is now devastated because he felt the H.S. leave his body. We are born again Christians
My father was a prominent man in the church. He sang solos and even came out with an album that never made it. Yet he once told me that I can go to hell for all he cares. I also had a sibling who called me Satan when I was a little kid. I am mentally ill too. Once on the way to a mental hospital in the back of an ambulance I thought that I was the antichrist. I was into drugs as well. I went through an intense period of hating God and blaspheming against the Holy Spirit like you wouldn’t believe. Now I am on an antipsychotic medication, and that, coupled with much prayer and studying of the Word, brought me to where I really do think that I am saved now, but, in the back of my mind there are still doubts.
Many years ago when I was lost… drinking a lot and using drugs …a lot, I suppose the devil caused me to say”fuck the Holy Spirit” I’m sure I said more in my drunken and high stuper , but that’s all I specifically remember saying. I have been clean and sober for 4 years now, so this question am I doomed for eternity, or can I be forgiven has came to my mind a lot. I certainly didn’t mean it, I was just “going through it” and I know that me in my right mind would not have said that.
Thank you ❤️🙏❤️
I have the same fear! Whenever I try to pray I am terrified of saying the wrong thing and as a 14 year old I actually did say something against the Spirit after being bullied at school! I am constantly afraid that my heart has hardened and the blasphemous thoughts won’t go away! I keep trying to renounce them in Jesus name but they won’t leave but I hate those thoughts deeply and don’t agree with them whatsoever. Is there any hope left for me because even though its hard to remember exactly what I said I feel like the constant blasphemous thoughts are torturing me because I am beyond forgiveness. I didn’t understand the Trinity as a teenager and hadn’t been baptized! But now I am and at this point I have no excuse before God. But I don’t want the Holy Spirit to leave me and am constantly asking God to help me not harden my heart beyond the point of conviction. Is there any hope left for me at this point?
Hey when I was 14 after being bullied I prayed for God to help my bullies repent but after reading Matthew 12 I remember having blasphemous thoughts and wanting to say that the devil is a liar but instead said Holy Spirit and I feel so far away from God. I keep trying to remind myself I was only a teenager and didn’t intentionally say those words but every time I try to fight blasphemous thoughts they come back to haunt me. I don’t agree with those thoughts nor do I agree that the Spirit can lie. But I can’t forgive myself for saying out loud those words in my anxiety from years ago. Am I beyond forgiveness? I’m always praying and recanting the blasphemous thoughts but they keep returning. I’m desperate to finally be free and don’t want my heart to harden too much. May Jesus have mercy on me please reply! The thoughts are getting more blasphemous I can’t sleep and hate myself deeply! Thank you I appreciate it!
I do the same thing and I try not to talk to myself but i do and sometimes I’m not sure if I actually said something wrong or not . It leaves me so full of guilt and feeling like I’m going to hell . Like I’m a failure and I know I’m not worthy of God ! I deserve to be in hell I am nothing ! But I’m so sorry if I said anything I shouldn’t have ! Jesus is my Lord and I want Him to be master of my life . But I feel like I can’t forgive myself for talking to myself
We all need to remember that Satan is a liar and accuser of God’s children. I was twelve when my grandpa offered me a coin I wanted if I agreed to sell my soul to Satan. I agreed with my fingers crossed behind my back. One night years later I woke up in the middle (or dreaming not sure but it seemed real) of the night with a demon squeezing my heart wanting me to worship it and I believed I agreed. Satan has tried to continuously condemn me my whole life because of these two things that happened in my life. I bothers me that I made the wrong choices but I God loves me and I have been forgiven. There are times that Satan comes back and whispers in my ear that I am not really saved because I sold my soul but he is a liar. We have a choice to believe what God says about us or what Satan says.
The enemy will put horrible blasphemous thoughts in my mind . Unfortunately I talk to myself . I was so upset the other day about one of these thoughts . The enemy tried to tell me that something that happened at church well I guess you get the picture . And I said no it was God I know it was ! But then the enemy
Kept telling me I said what I was thinking . I know I didn’t I’m sure I didn’t and yet I’m
Not sure . I pray and pray and repent and repent . But I have this fear and torment within me . God says if we come to Him that He won’t cast us out . So why can’t I get past this ? What if I did say something I wasn’t supposed to say ?
I’m so upset over this
I was just watching videos and at my cousin house and a god one came on and I said that I don’t want them to judge me so I turn it off and later I thought about it did I blashamy and god and the holy spirit
As a Christian woman, I was once married for 29 years. I got married at a young age (23), my marriage was not mutual. At that time my husband did not want to marry me. But my mom told me I needed to get married because I became pregnant. I told this to him (my husband) but he said his father told him he didn’t have to marry me. So, we did get married because I had to do my best to persuade him as I didn’t want to upset my mom then. But through my years of being with the man I married, it was difficult times, we did have some good times but it was ruff. Though we had 4 sons, during our times together things were difficult. My husband had a 9th grade education where it was hard for him to get a job. Back then I had to help him find jobs and lie about his education. There were times he would get jobs and times he would quit his jobs and the weight would fall on me. I had my diploma from high school and 3 years of college. I came from a household that had structure and his household was dysfunctional. There were times in our marriage relationship that my husband would be out of work for long periods of time. Once to the point where he chose to go down the wrong path to drugs. He had had a job working with his father, a good job working in an antique warehouse. But the job changed his position from working in a shipping and receiving area to standing exhibition. He refused to do that job paying good money. I did my best to explain to him that he had a family to take care of, as I was working for a college at the time. But he quit that job. After awhile, that’s when he went to the drugs. Many years down the line I had had enough. I tried to get him to go to counseling with me for our marriage, he didn’t want to go. So I stayed but down the line he chose another drug…food. He had got heavy and was going back and forth to the hospital, the doctor appointments but he continued to eat what he wanted. I tried my best to encourage him to change his habits but to no avail. One time he did lose weight but he gained it back. I changed the way I cooked but he would go and eat what he wanted. So I let him do what he wanted to do. I even took him to an nutritionist but he didn’t listen to her. So, like I said I let him do what he wanted. My husband during those times was a ordained minister. We didn’t go to the same church as I was raised and use to a big church. But he, coming up had never went to church til he met me and he chose to go to a smaller church. Through our years together he never changed his eating habits but would come home from church and then get on the phone with his Pastor (as he was a deacon during those times) and talk or tell his Pastor about the people in his church. I would tell him that’s the wrong thing to do and it’s not right to do that. He would tell me that he has to tell his Pastor everything. I would just shake my head and walk away. After some time of still being with him I had had enough and I stepped out on my husband. I became unhappy with my marriage to him. I had an affair with someone (who I did know from my childhood, we were childhood sweethearts during my Junior High school years). I had still remained a Christian woman, still was active in my church. I did eventually divorce my husband and I had ended the affair after two 1/2 years. My husband passed away, he had got sick and back in the hospital from 2 heart attacks that put him in a coma. I did go visit him before he passed and prayed that God would heal him where he would change and do better. But he had passed away. I have repented my sin of adultery to God and have asked for forgiveness. I did remarry but it was a week before my former husband passed. My question to you is how do I know if I’ve been forgiven by God? I know that he is a faithful and forgiving God, but there are times I wonder. I know this is a lot but I thank you for your response.