Most Christians have wondered at one time or another if they have committed the unforgivable sin.
I remember being terrified as a child that I had committed some unknown sin which would separate me eternally from God, and so several times a day, I would ask God to forgive me of all known and unknown sins, and would once again ask God to save me and give me eternal life. I was scared that I had committed a sin which was unforgivable.
What bad things had I possibly done as a youth? Nothing too serious. I fought with my siblings, stole candy from the supermarket, and disobeyed my parents.
But there were a few particular sins which terrified me most. They were terrible and I hesitate even to write them here, as I have never told anyone about them before. But to show you that I too have struggled with the unforgivable sin, let me share one of my more terrible sins.
My Most Terrible Sin
As a teenager, I remember kneeling at my bed late one night, and praying to Satan that he would come into my heart.
This is a terrible thing to pray for, but let me explain my rationale. I had been told as a child that one became a Christian by asking Jesus into their heart, which I had done. In fact, as I indicated above, I had done this numerous times.
But one day, someone told me that God was stronger than Satan, and once Jesus was in your heart, nothing could remove Him; not even Satan.
So I decided to test it.
I once prayed to Satan that he would enter my heart.
I also prayed that if he was successful, he would make me the antichrist.
I figured that if I was going to go down in flames, I might as well make it count.
I remember waiting for something to feel different, but nothing seemed to change, and so I decided that Jesus must have been successful in keeping Satan out of my heart.
Have I Committed the Unforgivable Sin?
Nevertheless, even though I did not feel Satan enter my heart, for many years afterwards I had an unshakable fear that maybe Satan had been successful, and since he was the great deceiver, I would not know that he ruled my heart until I actually became the antichrist. So I began to pray night and day that God would keep me from becoming the antichrist. One of my greatest fears at that time was that I would grow up to be God’s greatest enemy on earth.
You can imagine that among the theories on what the unpardonable sin is, one of the top contenders is asking Satan to kick Jesus out of your heart and take up residence there himself so that you can become the antichrist. If there is any unforgivable sin, this is it.
If anyone has committed the unforgivable sin, it is me.
If I had gone for counseling from a pastor who warns others about the unforgivable sin, I believe he would have told me I was doomed forever; that there was no forgiveness for me.
In fact, such a pastor would probably also say that since I committed the unpardonable sin, what I write in these posts about the unpardonable sin is not from God, but is the heresy of a reprobate heart darkened by Satan’s lies.
I hope that after you read these posts, you will feel differently.
I hope that you will come to see how much God loves you and forgives you. I have seen this for myself, and frankly, I cannot imagine how it would benefit Satan to teach others that God is loving and forgiving.
I hope that these posts will help you determine for yourself — in the light of Scripture and through the guidance of the Holy Spirit — that you also have not committed the unforgivable sin.
The content of these posts contain some of the things I have learned over the years about the unforgivable sin, and how I gained freedom and deliverance from my sins of the past. Like me, I trust that as you also will come to to an understanding of God’s infinite love, grace, and forgiveness.
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I am a Christian and live God dearly. I often get intrusive blasphemous thoughts and usually when it comes into my head, I try to think or say aloud something positive about God. However, the way I say it is a bit unusual. For example if some thoyght luke “Jesus is nothing” came in my head, I’d say “Jesus is nothing but awesome!” You see, I tend to start negatively, but end positively.
Unfortunately, I was trying to do the same thing the other day. I was thinking of a positive thing to say about the Holy Spirit, but in my weird negative-positive way. So I ended up willfully saying “The Holy Spirit is satanic..” Boom! I then realised I did not mean that, but I wanted to use the word ‘satanic’ in order to say something positive about the holy spirit (which I do believe). I genuinely love the Holy Spirit, but I am scared because I willfully said it, but in an unthoughtful way. I most definitely do NOT believe what I stupidly said in my heart. What do you think? Please give me your honest view.
P.s my message wasn’t clear, but I wanted to clarify, I did not say it in my heart and I certainly do not agree/believe what I stupidly said. Please help.
Sorry, last message. I take comfort in the view that, if somebody is worried about it, it means they have committed it. That, you want God to be with you, therefore the Holy Spirit is in you. But what about those people who were locked out, weeping and gnashing their teeth? They were knocking but God wanted nothing to do with them. Or in heaven, when someone who is there but wasn’t invited to the wedding and came in but were kicked out. Satan plagues me with these fears.
S,
That is an excellent question. I really need to publish a post or two on those “weeping and gnashing of teeth” passages. People are usually surprised to learn that in those texts, Jesus is not talking about hell at all. He is talking about people who are in the Kingdom, but who miss out on certain aspects of the Kingdom, and later come to regret the decisions that caused this.
S,
You have not committed the unpardonable sin. Really.
God is not like some pagan deity whose default attitude toward us is anger and vengeful wrath. No, God looks like Jesus on the cross, who loves us so much, He went to any length necessary to be forgive us and reconcile us to Himself.
It sounds like you love God and want to serve and follow Him. Focus your mind on Jesus and learn to follow Him. All the rest will fall into place.
I’ve read (and are now of the opinion) that in the Pharisees’ non-acceptance of the work of the Holy Spirit as they followed Jesus and saw the miracles, He was warning them that if they continued in this way they were rejecting salvation by proxy. That is, if they kept in their mindset of non-acceptance.
If they relented from this position, they opened themselves to the gospel.
That is, the statement that Jesus made was specific to that particular group of Pharisees who were particularly stubborn to the way the Spirit was working through Jesus in that particular narrative. It was not Jesus announcing a ‘law of the Medes and Persians’ edict from heaven onto mankind.
How old were you ? Seem a fairly immature thing to do.
Mark, Yes, that is a view I held for quite a while. It is a very good view.
Matthew, I was probably about 10 or 11.
Young enough to be a kid. Old enough to want to be a adult. My nephew just turned 12, so I know. 😉
Hey, my name is Skye and I need some reassurance that I haven’t committed the unforgivable sin. A little while ago after I had decided I would dedicate myself more completely to God I was thinking about how He uses the Holy Ghost to speak through us and I was trying to fight the slight disbelief I had of it even though I completely knew that it was true, just trying to block out the sinful thoughts. Then all of a sudden the thought, “The Holy Ghost is a demon,” came to my head and afterwards I immediately started to block it out and reassure myself that it was not true before I started to believe it. Does that mean I have committed the unforgivable sin? Please reply soon.
Skye,
I’m not a pastor or anything but I have been a Christian since I was 10 and have worked in ministry and have certificates for study. When I read your post you stated “I need some reassurance that I haven’t committed the Unpardonable Sin.” Then you asked for a reply soon. I instantly thought of myself wanting man’s reassurance and not God’s. The Bible is chock full of scripture that states you’re in God’s hands and “He will never leave you nor forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5.” You don’t need man’s assurance, you have His Word.
There is so much talk today about have we committed blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. But, very few people talk about what they actually said that scares them. Is saying G-d damn, G-d dammit and G-d damn blasphemy of the Holy Spirit?
saying that word is vulgar and a ugly habit. I know I have to work on that one. First thing is learning patience not to let my self get to the point of frustration that it just comes out. Next is renewing my mind. Changing my daily thoughts from a smoldering anger to love and caring that only comes by meditation on the scripture. Try it for 21 days and you’ll be changed for as long as you keep doing it.
Hello, I believe that I have committed this sin..I don’t know know what to do anymore. I need someone else from the outside looking in to examine the situation and help me to determine if I have committed this sin.
Mercedes, if you’re worried about having committed this sin against the Holy Spirit then it is unlikely you’ve committed it at all as you would feel no shame, worry, fear or concern about maybe having done it. Infact if you had I think you would probably be happy about it and continue to do it. You wouldn’t be worried about it at all.
Repent and turn from your sin, trust in Jesus that He can save you, and receive God’s peace that surpasses all understanding.
Christ is our only hope and the enemy wants to keep you feeling condemned. Jesus loves you, He paid the price for your sin. Trust that He is sufficient to deal with your sin and redeem your life from the grave. He loves you! God has a plan for your life.
I guess I’m in need of assurance that I am forgiven by God . I did something that ended up getting me in prison and 2 yrs of probation. I know from watching TV shows that with what I did most people would say I be doing the world a favor if I kill myself. I be came a Christian at 18 I’m 55 right now and I really deep down don’t know if God loves me anymore. I guess if you were to ask me I would have to be honest and say God is finished and ashamed of me.
Hi Brian,
The fact that you’re here able to write that message is proof that God isn’t ‘done with you’. Every beat of your heart is evidence of God upholding you and His incredible mercy.
He kew you would do everything you’ve done and ever will do and still He chose to pay your penalty and die on the cross for you. That is His ultimate proof that He loves you and has not forsaken you.
I know the feeling. Not for pride sake but to show the love of Christ and his ability to rescue us for anything if we raise are hands and reach out . A born again sprite filled . Slowly turned away and became a dug dealer along with all the trappings.. After a seemingly ruined life. All alone and lonely picked up the bible. Determine not to put it down till i got something anything out of it. Something to hang onto. After a few hrs or more of nothing. Still kept reading . Suddenly the words came to life. Sunk in my spirit. I know because I know. I’m set free. I love my self again. I look people in the eye again. Maybe it might work for you Brian ?
I suppose unforgivable sin is sin we don’t confess and ask for forgiveness. Afterwards repent. After we do that. We have no business with that sin what so ever God has it and he pitch it in the sea of his forgetfulness ! So one could say “WHAT” sin.. How can I possibly have a unforgivable sin ?? Its gone. No one knows where it is . May as well live free praise God
My son had a hell vision on the precipice and the H.S. kicked something down into the river of lava and said Go back to hell where you belong to the thing or entity.
He said he received a message saying “H.S. Warning” right before he took a bath. A day later we had Holy Communion in my house. I threw the paper plate away with very few crumbs in the plastic garbage bag and he threw a sponge you use to rinse off body soap into the same bag. Hours or the next day, he heard a voice telling him Unpardonable sin. He believes because he threw this sponge in the same bag that he committed this sin He is now devastated because he felt the H.S. leave his body. We are born again Christians
My father was a prominent man in the church. He sang solos and even came out with an album that never made it. Yet he once told me that I can go to hell for all he cares. I also had a sibling who called me Satan when I was a little kid. I am mentally ill too. Once on the way to a mental hospital in the back of an ambulance I thought that I was the antichrist. I was into drugs as well. I went through an intense period of hating God and blaspheming against the Holy Spirit like you wouldn’t believe. Now I am on an antipsychotic medication, and that, coupled with much prayer and studying of the Word, brought me to where I really do think that I am saved now, but, in the back of my mind there are still doubts.